I feel like my brain is on the verge of exploding. At this point I really just want to drop out of school, quit my job, and go on a vacation that never ends. With everything that has been going on lately both positive and negative it feels like my knees are going to give out with all of this weight that I am carrying. Finals are coming up and I seriously am stressing over 3 classes. English, Geology, and Stats. I’m definitely not even ready for my stats test and its next Friday and I am pretty sure I am barely passing my Geology class and my final is on Wednesday next week. I have to write a 5 page essay by Thursday this week about compassion and I haven’t even read the book we are supposed to base the essay off of. I know that I probably should’ve done all of this earlier, but with work, the passing of my Uncle, and my sister being pregnant.. it is A LOT to handle. Plus this Friday I have to drive all the way up to Los Altos which is like 8 hours away for a Sophomore volleyball showcase… And I am nervous as fudge. Hundreds of college coaches are going to come out and watch plus I am stressing over gas money and trying to find a damn hotel. I feel like I am getting absolutely no help… At this point I don’t even want to go because I already have some offers, but I know that this will just be a great experience so I am forcing myself to go. I just want school to be over with so I can relax because next semester isn’t going to be any easier. I am taking 5 classes all for my major which is criminal justice and beach volleyball. I don’t even know what I want to do with my life at this point. i just want to be happy and not stressed. Thats all I want at this very exact moment…. Im tired of pulling my hair out and staying up tip 3 am and losing sleep.